But last night we met up with some of my friends, and for the first time in a long time I longed for the past. I've talked about these friends a lot. I've dedicated blogposts to them. But sometimes, I still miss them.
But it got me thinking as we were driving home last night, what other times do I long for? What moments in my life do I miss so much that I wish I could go back? It's an amazing thing what our memory does. Goldenizing the past, covering up the ugly parts, and recycling it over and over in our minds to make it more than it was. But it's the people not that places, not the history, not the event that I miss so much. People that touched my life if only for a moment that I will never forget. Driving around Cedar with Linz, putting up a Christmas tree with Schyler, or watching Jessica make a picture perfect apple pie.
(Please excuse the poor quality of the pictures, I just took a picture of the picture with my iPhone.)
This was the summer after our Freshman Year. 15 years old and all the possibilities in the world. Luckily I see Ashley all the time, but this picture makes me miss Mandy so much I almost can't stand it.
This is the only decent picture of Erica and I that I can find.... from close to the time period. (Well except ones with my granola boyfriend that we lovingly refered to as Sh-wan) but there was a time as 18 year old girls that Erica and I were so connected that we couldn't stand to go a day without talking.
But the thing that probably makes me most nostalgic is the thought of a sunset in Idaho in August with the smell of alfalfa in the cooling summer breeze. I kinda wonder what it makes me most nostalgic about it. Sure it reminds of my days at college, summers with the Parsons, but most important.... it makes me nostalgic for my dad. His humor, his fun and games, but mostly his sentimental, romantic side. I don't think I'll ever be able to look at a old broken down barn in the country or the river bottoms of the Snake River without thinking about him.