*Disclaimer: This is one of those whinny posts that I often times delete within a day. So if you actually read it, enjoy my emotional... not so logical whine. (And if you feel like commenting after asking if I want some cheese and crackers to go with that whine, I don't blame you.)
Waving my white flag.
Stickin' a fork in it.
(Insert any other phrase I have forgotten)
As of last night I am officially done dating. I am so sick of it!!! I am so sick of the awkward first date. I am so sick of the boring dates when I look at my watch and just wish I could be in bed. I am so sick of the stupid formality of it all. I am sick of trying to pretend to like something, be something, or do something in order to appease my date.
Yesterday in class I was teaching about the arranged marriages. I joked that I wished I was born in such a culture. One of my quieter geekier students (hence I was shocked hearing it from him) said, "Miss Parson, you could have been married a hundred times if you wanted to!"...... snap.
But to answer your question... why today? Why have I decided I'm done dating as of today. Last night was the straw that broke the camel's back. I've been going on a lot of first dates recently. It is absolutely exhausting...I met a guy a couple of weeks ago. We talked about going out. He called and I almost felt like I was on the old 70's church movie "The Phone Call" as he awkwardly asked me on a date. It was kinda endearing how nervous he sounded. I thought he was a cool guy. I was kinda excited to get to know him. But apparently when I text him my address last night and told him I was excited about our date I didn't use enough !!!!! or :) :) :) or maybe I should have thrown in a ;) because 10 minutes before the date.... which means, AFTER I had already pulled myself out of my warm cozy bed, taken a shower, put on make up, done my hair, and got dressed.... he sent this text,
***My whining is not about this particular guy. Honestly, I think he chickened out, I don't think he is a jerk. (It might have to do with when he asked me how long I've been teaching and I told him this is my 7th year and he did the math.... since he graduated high school in 2008...) But anyways my whining is about how ridiculous/sensitive/vulnerable dating can make us. Hence, I am done.