Saturday, October 30, 2010

Halloween 2010

For Emmie's birthday we played clue. So so so fun!
While everyone was on a scavenger hunt around Utah Valley, I went back with the birthday girl and tried to capture some of the fun... I guess you could say this is my first attempt at photographing an event... the coloring is a bit off but I'm too lazy to fix it right now :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010


The Problem With Dreaming Is No Matter How Unrealistic The Dream Is, No Matter How Much You Try And Convince Yourself It Won't Happen, There Is Always Hope...And The Feeling When It Doesn't Come True Makes You Question Whether You Should Ever Dream Again.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


I've never really cared for Halloween. I think it all comes down to the fact that I am scared of the dark... But my friend Linz tagged me in a Halloween blog and threatened she would post some awful blackmail pictures so here is my tribute to Halloween.
Baby Smerf - 1984
Clown of 1985
The CUTEST witch of all time.... 1986
Rainbow Bright 1987
Bitter Princess of 1989
Witch of 1990
Model of 1992
(Yes there is a HUGE jump to 1999 because quite frankly I want to forget those awful outfits... particularly the green hair that stayed for 2 months. P.S. if any of you have any of those pictures I would LOVE to see them!!!)
Hippy of 1999
Dr and Patient of 2000 (I wish I had the actual dance picture cuz it's hilarious!)
BamBam of 2001
Love Child of 2002

Sarah Palin 2008
Faith Hill 2009
2010..... to be continued.


How could the happiest place on earth possibly get any happier??

When you get to watch her.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


I have spent many hours of my life critiquing artwork. It's interesting. Paintings are so different. Different subjects, different styles, different messages... but I have discovered one thing that makes all the difference. Good lighting. The past few weeks I have been surrounded by great lighting. When the sun is going down it is like God is touching everything with His golden rays. It is glorious.

Yes... all these pictures were taken with my phone. One of these days I am going to purchase a great camera. Until then, my LG NV3 will have to do.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Please Understand Me

One of the most innate characteristic that each of us carry is the desire to be understood, to feel like we are not traveling on this journey alone. This is probably one of the most challenging parts of being a member of Never Never Land. Those on the outside look upon it with envy while most within are so caught up in the glitz and glam to recognize the irreparable damage that it is causing. Sadly I am not fortunate enough to be swept away by the bright lights. This makes me feel alone because whenever conversing with those outside of it, they just want to be a part of it; while interacting with those in it, they just want to keep up the high, don't want to face reality.

So when I find something that I can really relate to, I tend to cling to it, afraid that that moment of understanding will disappear as quickly as it came. Such a moment happened as I was reading a book. Now before I go on to praise this book, a bit of warning. This is not the type of book you will find at Deseret Book, although the title may suggest it. It is very vulgar, and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone that I know reads my blog. But I still want to write about this book because it was a wonderful read for me.

Why this book has impacted me so much is because it is the journey of a single Mormon girl that probably thinks too much, analyzes too much, and goes through major cycles of mid-life crisis based off her current experiences. Her voyage to discover the meaning of life includes going from a 250 pound wallflower to a 140 pound beauty and the shocking difference 110 pounds makes on how people treat you. She bitterly sacrifices her "soul mate" because he was an atheist and struggles to understand why God didn't manifest a sign to him when he prayed to know of His existence.

I guess why I loved this book so much is because it was so real... probably too honest. In a world surrounded by plastic smiles this girl, no matter how stupid or annoying or wrong, dared to write exactly how she felt. And it was a breath of fresh air.

Thursday, October 14, 2010


Courtesy of Jylare

It's so interesting how life works. We all have big dreams. Some work. Some don't. Tonight it's 3:02 in the morning and I can not sleep because of my big dreams. The great thing about big dreams is they keep us feeling alive. The bad thing about them is they get our hopes up and it's awful hard when they don't come true.

Sorry to not be specific but tomorrow... or I guess today is one of those big dream days. The kind that make you so nervous you can't sleep. The kind of situation where it is almost too good to be true. But that is the problem with big dreams, often these situations are too good to be true and only lead to disappointment.

Today I'm throwing my hat in a ring. I recognize my chances are slim but I have to throw my hat in this ring because otherwise, what's the use of dreaming?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

"Just Friends"

We all think the same thing when we hear someone describe a relationship as, "Oh we are just friends." We are all thinking... "Yeah right! Either one or both of you, whether you are consciously thinking it or not, are hoping to be more than just friends." We are never surprised when we find out that this so called "friendship" eventually turns into more... especially if these so called friends spend a lot of time together. I, like most, have been very skeptical any time a boy and a girl that spend time together refer to each other as friends. I believed that it wasn't possible for at least one or both parties to not want the friendship to be something more.

Many books and movies have been created discussing and typically disproving the theory that boys and girls can be friends. So many plots are based on the idea of a girl considering a boy as a friend but eventually realizing that she is in love with him. Two of my favorite examples are:

 Anne of Green Gables: At one point of the movie: "Gil and I have only ever been good friends!" At the end of the movie: "I went looking for my ideals outside myself.  I discovered it's not what the world hold for you, it's what you bring to it.  The dreams dearest to my heart are right here... I don't want sunbursts or marble halls, I just want you."
Clueless: This is one of my favorite movie moments.  Cher was walking down some random street when she comes to a fountain, stops and says, "What does she want with Josh, anyway?  He dresses funny, he listens to complaint rock, he's not even cute... in a conventional way.  I mean, he's just like this slug who hangs around the house all the time.  And he's a hideous dance, I couldn't take him anywhere.  Wait, a second, what am I stressing about?  This is like, Josh!  Ok, ok, so he's kind of a baldwin, but what would he want with Tai?  She couldn't make him happy.  Josh needed someone with imagination, someone to take care of him, someone to laugh at his jokes... in case he ever makes any.  Oh my gosh!  I love Josh.  I am majorly, totally, butt-crazy in love with Josh."
The movie When Harry Met Sally is completely dedicated to discussing this question and concluded that men and women can not be friends.
Sally: You said men and women can not be friends.
Harry: No, no, no, I never said that.... Well yes, that's right, they can't be friends.  Unless both of them are involved with other people, then they can... This is an amendment to the earlier rule.  If two people are in relationships, the pressure of possible involvement is lifted... That doesn't work either, because what happens then is, the person you're just friends with.  Like it means something is missing from the relationship and why do you have to go outside to get it?  And when you say "No, no, no it's not true, nothing is missing from the relationship," the person you're involved with the accuses you of being secretly attracted to the person you're just friends with, which you probably are.  I mean, come on, who the hell are we kidding, let's face it.  Which brings us back to the earlier rule before the amendment, which is men and women can't be friends."
So today I would like to explain my conclusion of the age old question, can a boy and a girl just be friends?

For the longest time I didn’t think it was at all humanly possible. But due to current circumstances now my thoughts have changed. As long as the boy is not attracted to the girl, a guy and a girl can be friends. You see, think about how many times you have heard a girl say, “I wasn’t attracted to him at first but the more I get to know him, the better friends we became, the more I started to like him.” Now reverse the thought, how rare it is to hear a guy say, “I wasn’t attracted to her at first but the more I’ve got to know her, the better friends we became, the more I wanted to date her.” Harsh

reality is… physical attraction to a guy is the deal breaker and almost nothing can change that. A girl may not be churchy enough, smart enough, or too high maintenance…. Those things can be compromised, but if a girl isn’t to the standard of looks that the guy is looking for she doesn’t stand a chance. So I have concluded unless some physical transformation happens such as the movie Sabrina, a guy that is not initially attracted to a girl is rarely going to change his mind.

So can a guy and a girl be just friend and neither party want it to be more? I believe the answer is yes. But only if the following equation exists: the guy is not physically attracted to the girl + the girl is not interested = Just friends. If the guy is physically attracted the equation ≠ Just Friends because sooner or later he is going to want to/ try to hook up with her and typically especially if they are very close friends she will go along with it and their relationship with change. If the girl is interested in the guy but the guy is not attracted to the girl… this = a long road of heartbreak for the girl.

So When Harry Met Sally was destined to fail at proving the hypothesis that a guy and a girl can just be friends because although it took them 12 years and two hours of hilarious cinema the movie really ended in the first scene. In their first meeting Harry told Sally how attractive she was. This inevitably led to their downfall.

Although it is very very very rare for the equation to exist, next time someone suggests they are “just friends” if the guy is not attracted to the girl AND the girl is not interested in the guy the worlds have aligned and a guy and a girl can be just friends.